Monday, September 26, 2011

don't ever forget you are never alone

So I love this video. I want to live in it. Does that make sense? Sweet children, family, solar flare and big fields. All things that I love in my life.

Friday, September 23, 2011

the way I feel

My mind is reeling after a week of service in the remote town of Eagan, Tennessee-smack in the middle of poverty-ridden Appalachia. I'm still processing a lot of what I saw, but here are a few things I know for sure:

1. I have done absolutley nothing to deserve the mounds of blessings I have, starting with being born where I was and to the family I was with the life I have. Nothing. Pure act of God. End of story.

2. Pride is a hateful thing and a slippery slope. I found myself wanting to feel sorry for the people who I was serving instead of building a relationship with them. That one totally took me for a loop and nagged at me for the entire 8 days. 

A huge theme in my life for the past few months has been LIGHT; being the light in a dark place, keeping things in the light, basking in the Light, sharing light and most of all-being the light of the world and a city set on a hill. I swear, everywhere I turn and every verse I read is smacking me in the face with some light.

Psalm 27:1
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread?

My heart is so heavy from the stories I heard, the homes I worked in, the families I saw and the lack of hope I felt, and I just pray that the Fellows' brief presence in Eagan brought some much-needed light and truth to a dark community.

In the midst of being quite shaken, torn between wanting to get rid of all my stuff and resisting the urge to "fix" the town where I just was, I am trying to wait, process and find my rest in God alone.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

wednesday (ok actually Thursday) things.

1. It has been so gross and rainy the past few days but I’m telling you, I’m loving it. Summer has really worn me out yet again and I am so energized by a change in season and cooler weather.

2. The Fellows are hilarious. I love that we can pull pranks and bounce jokes off each other, group gchat and have Boy Meets World marathons during Boomsday. I am just loving my life being filled with such a genuinely fun group of friends. 

3. True to Priode form, my new cousin who was supposed to be born anytime last week but ultimately by still not here. I am so ready to kiss his little head! Stay tuned!

4. Three weeks of leading a small group of inner-city middle school girls has already been extremely rewarding and valuable, as far as keeping myself accountable. I see them and remember how lost I was during those years and it makes me want to just squeeze them.

5. Um hello, where is my free time going? I have Monday evenings free during the week and I have consistently found myself trying to cram too much into that time and I end up worn out, frazzled and unaccomplished. I am having the hardest time saying no to every opportunity for hangout time, which resulted in me feeling terrible and sick-ish all of last weekend. Womp womp

6. I am WAY excited about the possibility of my lovely and amazing friend EMMA getting to come back to Tennessee! This is big news!

7. I just finished my 3rd story at work, which was the hardest so far. I spent probably five days just trying to get it to make sense. Very frustrating. It will run next week so once again, stay tuned...